“Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, this he will also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life.”
“Walk by the Spirit and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.”
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control; against these things there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another.” -Galatians 5&6
I know there is more of the Spirit than what I have. I know when Jesus calls you to himself, he gives you his Spirit, but there is also a filling up of the Spirit, and a re-filling and re-filling. My great desire had once been to learn how to attune myself to the Spirit. Learn more about him. What grieves him, and what brings him joy. I wanted to be filled up to over-flowing with his fruit so that I could pour him out on others, and then hold my heart up to be filled again. What a sweet cycle it would be! I don’t know what happened. I got distracted, forgot to include him in my prayers, as if it were a duo I believed in, instead of a trio. I’m so silly. I try, and fall short, try again, and surprise, fall short again. When you let Jesus slip away from being center in your life, it shouldn’t be astonishing that everything you’ve worked for and desires slips away too. When you let yourself drift on the wind, the wind takes you where it will. When will I learn that I have to constantly, actively fight for the joy of faith?